The weight feels like water, running over and down and around and under me
It twists my perception until I no longer recognise up
This invisible drowning, choking my mind and my soul
My thoughts turns to water, all liquid with no train to grasp
I see land all around me and it teases me with a veiled normality
My limbs twist and ache, heavy with memories of movement and ease
I reach for a branch, a twig, a leaf, anything to keep me floating
I know that swimming is forever beyond me, that tide has turned
And again today, I fight the call of the depths
Where there is no weight, no water, no pain, I strive just to float
All the time invisibly drowning